me and me

ngayong araw...

2005-05-26T22:40:00.000+08:00

...nagpunta bestfriend ko para magsoli ng the sims na cd, at pahiramin ako ng bob ong books nya. natuwa naman ako. nagchikahan ng konti. uyy..lovelife! hehehe. joke lang. :) tapos umuwi na sya. tapos nun nag-usap pa kami sa text? o diba? :) san pa kayo? :)

...scary.really. where are you?! :( some people are WORRIED SICK about you.. please, at least tell us where you are..and whether you are safe..

...si carrie, AT HINDI SI BO BICE ang nanalo sa american idol 4. ok lang. ang lamang lang naman nya (carrie) kay bo ay yung private jet at yung title na american idol. di bale. :) go bo! :) sabi nga sa mga karatula dun sa american idol, BO ROX MY SOX! what?! hehehe :)

...ayun lang. gusto ko lang magtype. sigh. bored. and getting fat(?).. i hope not...

buradong alaala

2005-05-26T02:07:00.000+08:00

corny nung title no? wala kasi akong maisip na title e.

nanaginip ako kagabi, nagddrive daw ako... ng motorsiklo. at sinabi ko kay icy, kasi naka-angkas sya, na yung nasa lisensya ko ay pangkotse lang. di pwede ang motor. tapos isa lang ang helmet kaya ako lang. tapos pupunta ako ng school dapat, kaso parang 2 days yata yung byahe. kaya nagpagabi kami sa kalye ng eating buddies ko. tapos kinabukasan nagmotor ulit ako. at ako lang. may kailangan daw puntahan na kompanya kasi magrereport daw. irerepresent yata yung school o yung course. anyway, ayaw ko daw pumunta. pumunta ako pero tiningnan ko lang yung nangyayari. nasa labas lang ako kasi glass yung walls nila kaya kita lang sa labas. at si joyce na daw ang magrereport. si joyce po ay HS friend ko, friend ko pa rin syempre, nung HS ko sya nakilala. naka st. paul college uniform sya na suot. at may hawak sila ng cartolina para magreport.

tapos si kz (isang bisot at eating buddy) na ang nakita ko. sasabay daw sya sa MOTORSIKLO ko papuntang school pero sinabihan muna nya ako na kunin daw yung ibong adarna o florante at laura (di ko maalala e, basta isa dun) na namin na libro sa kabilang building. sabi nya iwan ko daw gamit ko dun kasi babalik naman daw kami, sabi ko ayoko kasi uuwi na ako pagkagaling sa school. magkikita din daw kasi sila ng mama nya doon kaya iwan ko na lang gamit nya. tapos sumunod ako. nung hinahanap ko na yung libro (yung libro namin nakapatong sa iba pang mga libro. yung amin nakahiga sa mga nakatayong libro. gets? may mga nakavertical na libro tapos ung amin nasa ibabaw at nakahorizontal. basta yun.), nahanap ko na yung akin at yung kay kz di ko mahanap. sobrang tagal ko na daw naghahanap, may lalaki at babaeng lumapit, mag fill-out daw ako ng form para sa something-number. di ko matandaan. buradong alaala.

tapos, "karina...karina...pabuksan naman yung e-mail ko."

si mommy na, ginigising ako kasi papabuksan nya yung e-mail nya.

i never got to finish my dream. i do not know if i were able to go to my school with kz and with the ibong adarna/florante at laura book. weird dream it was. yeah...

bakit ko nga pala to kinikwento? it does not matter anyway. gusto ko lang kasi magtype. wala kasi akong magawa. nga pala, tinamad ako manood ng american idol kanina. natulugan ko yung 3pm at 4pm na palabas. tapos yung 8pm, tinamad na ako. ewan. basta bukas, manonood ako kasi finals na talaga. sino kaya? good luck sa kanilang dalawa. :)

hello marius!

updates...still...

2005-05-23T02:35:00.000+08:00

i have just cheked my mail, and i found out that JJ just added me as his friend! :) wow. i told myself that if he checked his account and he did not approve my invitation, i will cancel that request and leave that. right? :) yeah. but fortunately he did approve my request, that is what the server calls it. yet, i am not SO happy. :)

vacation now. wow. i am having boring days because there is nothing to do but wait for the next semester to start and give me something to whine about.

our college's council is hosting a leadership training. and a friend convinced me to join (hi beh!) and i asked permission from my parents, which they said that they will consider. i was half hoping that they would agree, but they did not. i was bothered because the friend who invited me was asking me to be there to represent our organization too. but i was not allowed to. for reasons i am not sure if true. but what my parents told me, i believe. sigh. i am sorry beh. GOd bless tomorrow.

speaking of tomorrow, it will be another term for all students of la salle. :) God bless to all of you. :)to those people who are still enjoying their vacations, enjoy while you can. toxicity will beging soon. :) and, pasalubong ko ha? hehehe. kidding. :)

what happened yesterday

2005-05-18T17:48:00.000+08:00

pumasok ako. late na. ok lang kasi wala na kaming quiz e. at di dumating si sir. nalate na yata syang dumating. anyway, nasa may GAB kami, at yung upuan namin katapat ng upuan ni JJ! (oo ging, si JJ ulit. ;p) buong umaga nasa harap ko sya. tumatawa. napaka-cute. nung umuwi sya nakita ko kaya hinila ko si ging. sorry ging. tumawid sya sa kabilang side ng taft, e kami papuntang anglo. nung nasa anglo na may conference kami sa YM na di ko natagalan kasi aalis na daw yung CVC na pupunta sa haven for children sa tapat ng ATC, na talagang lakad ko sa araw na yon.

kumain muna kami kina icy (salamat!) tapos pumunta na don. ang ganda nung lugar, medyo mainit pero ang laki tinalo pa yung bahay namin. :) tapos nag-ATC kami. wala, uminom lang ako ng frutas. inis nga e kasi wala silang carrots. :( ok lang din. pinalitan na lang ng saging. tapos bumalik kami kina icy para manggulo lang doon. hehe. :) nakapag table tennis ako. for the first time! :) ang saya pala. tapos umorder pa sila ng yellocab pizza. dalawa. pareho ang flavor. galing! :) hehehe. nag-ambag kaming lahat kasi nakakahiya kay paul, siya lagi nanlilibre. :) thanks sa pamasahe paul! inabot na kami ng six pm dun. grabe! nung pauwi inuna si ayeth. tapos dumaan kami sa daang hari. ANG LAKAS NG ULAN at HANGIN! galing nga ni icy e. kasi sya yung nagddrive. nasubok na ang kanyang pagiging driver. :) ako di pa rin. ambon lang yung dati kumpara kagabi. katakot. ayun, si dangell sunod na bumaba, zapote kabila. tapos yung iba, sa zapote. ako special! hinatid ako hanggang bahay. :) salamat ulit icy. :)

nasa bahay na ko. :)

ngayong araw na 'to: pumasok ako. nakita si JJ (oo ging, sya ulit! ;p) ang gwapo na nya! SO NEAR YET SO FAR! hehehe. nasa harap ko sya dumaan at tiningnan ko lang. oo icy, engraved. hahaha! :) gwapo pa rin. walang kokontra. tapos meeting ng CVC. ang ginawa ko lang halos ay kinulit ni coco at tumawa. :)

nasa sm ako ngayon kasi matapos kong mapanood si bo bice sa american idol hinarot ako at nadaganan ko yung salamin ko na inaayos na. kaya net muna ako habang naghihintay.

JJ! i still want to be your friend. :) wuhoo! ging sya ulit o. ;p yaan mo na ako. :)

thinking...

2005-05-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

not good...i'm doing this with a dripping nose,literally...allergy.

i opened JJ's account today, just now. i decided to look at his friends, and whoa! puro BABAE! it made me think. SHOULD I STILL ADD HIM AS MY FRIEND? gosh! it made me feel that i'm just going to be one of some of those girls who had/have acrush on him and added him up. sigh. but i have made up my mind. i will do it. i will.

then again, it maybe is good that his friends are female and not a you-know.. :) sorry. :( pa-consuelo. hihihi.

"excuse me, nagquiz na ba?" sabay smile. :)

...there is more to what my eyes can see...

what pops into mind

2005-05-14T13:54:00.000+08:00

1. natanggal na si anthony... :( pero nandun pa rin si bo.. :) sino kaya magiging american idol 4?
2. sobrang init..
3. nilagnat ako kahapon.. ok na ko ngayon. sabi nga ni mommy lagnat laki daw kasi isang araw lang. waaah! di kasi ako naniniwala dun e. ;p
4. JJ!!! :) magiging friend ko ba sya? weeeh! :)
5. matatapos na ang summer class :( di ko na sya makikita (?).. 3rd year na tayo!! kakayanin ko ba?
6. magdodorm na ko.. homesickness sinks in.. :( waah!!
7. "excuse me, may ballpen ka ba na pwede kong mahiram?" sabay smile :)

walking down the aisle

2005-05-13T15:17:00.000+08:00

it is not about a wedding or my wedding...

yihee!! may happening with JJ! :) hmmm.. masama na talaga ang pakiramdam ko nung pumasok ako ngayon. tapos di ko na talaga kaya yung sakit ng likod ko. kaya, naisipan kong tumayo at lumabas ng room para iunat yun. sa may harap ako nakaupo kanina. kaya kelangan ko maglakad down the aisle (parang ikakasal ;p). yung upuan ni JJ nakatapat sa aisle, nung naglalakad ako, nakikipagchikahan sya. tapos nung malapit na ako, tumingin sya. nakakahiya talaga. e anong gagawin ko, alangan naman tumakbo ako diba? para akong tanga nun. syempre di ako tumakbo. lakad lang ako na parang wala. pero feeling ko nangitian ko sya. feeling ko lang. di ko maalala e.. tapos nung nasa may pinto na ako, lumingon sya ulit sa akin. e ako lang naman nandun sa may pinto kaya ako yung tiningnan nya. feeling! hehehe. bakit titingnan mo ba yung pinto kahit walang lalabas o pumasok? syempre feeling ko lang naman. pero totoo yun. twice syang tumingin. :) no choice naman sya e. malay ba nya kung sino yung naglalakad sa aisle? REFLEX lang yun. tsaka yung paglingon nya sa may pinto, baka akala ko lang. baka kakausapin nya ulit yung katabi nya, na kachikahan nya nung dumaan ako. malay mo? :)

pero yaan mo na ko. feel ko na "tiningnan" nya ako. diba? hehehe :)

iinvite ko pa rin sya sa ... at gusto ko pa rin syang maging friend. :)

THERE IS MORE TO WHAT MY EYES CAN SEE. :)

today

2005-05-10T19:19:00.000+08:00

1. went to class. had a quiz.
2. I SAW JJ!!!
3. assisted with the freshie enrolment.. tiring but fun.
4. went home.
5. had some TOPAK!
6. still having that topak... sigh. :(

good thing i saw JJ! :) binawi lahat. haay. :)

tungkol dun sa kinakarir ko... :)

2005-05-09T18:55:00.000+08:00

ayan. i have made an entry but i am not sure if i have saved it properly.

he is the only crush that i want to be a friend of. sigh. it is true. it is like this: when i had a crush on OOOO, i did not think that he would be my friend..and, ehem, my friend. :) then there is LLLLL, he is not my friend. hahaha! suplado kasi. wehihihi! :) and AAAA, well, he is my friend. but he is not my crush anymore. i think. maybe it is because i do not see him anymore but i am not sure. and now, JJ! :) i wanted to be his friend! i really do.. sigh.

earlier today, he was wearing a shirt that is big, maybe not too big. but he looks like he just woke up and went to school with the shirt he wore when he went to sleep. hehehe. :) he is TALL! when he passed the front door of our classroom, he looked back and i saw his face again. looked back at our place (where i was sitting). wuhoo!! :) so handsome (for me! :))

i just want to see him. i just want to know him. i want to be his friend.

the reason i think is: THERE IS MORE TO WHAT THE EYES [MY EYES] CAN SEE.. yeah. :)

this day went out fine.
1. i passed the exam we had last thursday.
2. i saw JJ! :) wuhoo! karir! :) ang cute nya talaga. kaso para syang nakapantulog kanina. hihihi. CUTE KA PA RIN!!!!
3. me and my bestfriend went to sm southmall.
4. we (i and my bestfriend) texted someone who called me earlier. damn! tried to invite me to his account. ahaha! you wish!! ;p i am so bad. well, tinarayan ko/namin.

about that trip, i accompanied her to buy somethings (including a bob ong's book, school supply? :)) for her classes. yeah. i should buy too because people are starting to flock bookstores. sigh. but it was fun. we did not do much, i had fun. it was raining "cats-and-dogs" earlier, so we had to wait for it to settle down. we saw her lola too. :) nahihiya nga ako e. hihihi.

this is all i can remember. ;p next time.

..the end..

kwento

2005-05-06T14:05:00.000+08:00

katatapos lang ng exam kahapon. haay... i hope everything turns out well..

may bago akong kinakarir! wuhoo! :) sana maging friend ko sya (on a personal basis).. haay.. :) kanina nga, nakakahiya kasi kapag lilingon ako sa kanya, nakatingin din sya. nahiya naman ako. minsan sya yung iiwas ng tingin. nakakahiya! pero, YIHEE!! :)

american idol: tanggal na si scott. am i bad? haay. anyway, BO BICE ROCKS! wuhoo! galing nya talaga. ang ganda nung version ng STAND BY ME. haay talaga. :) :) apat na lang sila. ang bilis!

cbc, i'm still with you.. :)

...the end...

feeling the vacation mood

2005-05-02T17:57:00.000+08:00

since we had the long vacation from school because of the extended day, i have been really feeling the vacation mood. ha! now i have been sleeping early and waking up late. making have head aches. then i have been eating like there's no tomorrow. sigh. i wish i had not. but it feels good. :)

just last week, i have been feeling bad. feeling like i will be having some kind of disease. i have been scaring myself that i will die because of something i do not know about. but thank God, i have been feeling okay.

sigh. tomorrow, i will be having another class. sigh. really. instead of having some fun times, i have been attending school. my class is not bad. i learn common-sense things. things that we/i do not pay much attention to.

i feel that i need to be losing weight. :( waah!

the end.

issues...

2005-04-25T19:50:00.000+08:00

english entry again..

1. is it only me? or do i feel that the closeness i believed i had with some friends/blockmates is slowly losing its bond? there are some things/issues that would bring me close to a blockmate. so while that event is "on" we are still close. and when that issue is resolved, that once closeness/bonding we had is gone. whenever i approach them, i do not feel the same warmth anymore. it is like we are just classmates again. sigh.

2. HE is "flying around" again. sigh.

3. the same issue i had in high school. i am not good enough. i told myself not to please anyone again. but why do i feel that i am not the person they say i am. my bestfriend knows this. she is the one i consult to before in high school, and until now. i just don't feel i am good enough. :(

4. being the TALKER/TALKATIVE PERSON i am, i do not know when to stop. i am not always aware that i hurt other people. i need my personality/attitude checked. i'm sorry.

that's all i remember so far...

bye...

what i did today

2005-04-24T19:28:00.000+08:00

english muna ha? para mabilis...

i woke at around past 7 in the morning, prepared myself and went to hear from our sunday service. then, yesterday our family planned to dine at an eat-all-you-can restaurant, we went to albang town center to dine at an eat-all-you-can restaurant. it was at saisaki. there i experienced two-firsts in my life:
1. first time i had a "cross-over meal", where i could eat or take food from dad's, saisaki, and kamayan all at the same time. wow! you could imagine how happy i was. boy was i full. =)
2. it was also my first time to experience four people, in color-coded attires, to sing songs to us. the first song, which a girl sang, the nearness of you. and the second song, sang by a guy, was the way you look tonight. it felt really good.

then we went to see a movie. Guess Who, where ashton kutcher (is my spelling correct?) is sort of the lead actor. i am not going to spoil anything by telling what the movie is about. go and watch it. it's fun. i enjoyed it. =) i don't know about you. we watched it twice. then we walked around... and went home.

now i am here telling you this... and enjoyed my family day.

and now, i am going to leave... babay. =)

updates...

2005-04-23T17:41:00.000+08:00

It’s been a while since I last made my entry here.

Okay. Updates:

Sabi sa amin, wala na daw kaming summer classes. Nilagay ko din yata nay un dito. Sobrang saya ko na nun. Nag-iisip na ako ng mga plano. Tapos the day before our college’s enrolment date, nagtext yung blockhead namin na may summer class daw at kailangan na mag-enroll bukas. Ha?! Inis talaga. E di wala naman akong magawa, kasi kung hindi ko to kukunin this summer, kelan pa? Di naman pwede na first sem ng third year kasi sobrang toxic na. haay. Natsci4 yung subject: environmental geology. So far, ok naman sya. Yung first quiz ko zero kasi late na ako, nagulat pa ako sa pagkaka-present nung quiz. Naka-project tapos ang bilis mawala. Ayan, may itlog tuloy ako na score. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, di bale babawi ako next time. Di na dapat ako malelate. Oo nga pala, since summer class sya, meetings are everyday at 7:45 to 9:45 am. Sigh. Talk about going home when people are just going to work.

Birthday ko. Nung birthday ko, Sunday, we went out to eat, after going to church. They bought me a pair of correction glasses. Frameless. Astig. Kaso makapal kaya nagpagawa ulit ng bago. Nakakahiya nga kasi ang mahal na. Tapos naadvance pa yung laptop ko. Nakakahiya. Gusto ko pa ng motorazr v3 no? Hahaha. Pero di ko na pipilitin pa yun. Binigyan din ako ng backpack Bible, cute. =) tapos si Barbie at si Bianca bumili ng cd ni ryan cabrera. =) natuwa ako kasi tinanong pa nila ako kung anong cd gusto ko. Nahiya naman ako kaya sabi ko bahala sila, pwede ngang wag na e. Nung Monday nagpunta si mj at bestpwend dito. Nagdala sila ng pansit. =) ang sarap. Nagkwentuhan kami at nagtawanan. I had a blast. =) thanks for coming. =) actually medyo naisip ko na din na may ibang pupunta kasi ang sabi ni cbc (ajong) na punta sya dito sa Monday. Tapos nagtxt si raynell nung Sunday na di daw sya makakapunta bukas (Monday). Napaisip ako tuloy.hehehe. =)

Removal exam sa neuroanatomy. Ang toxic talaga. Mula nung nalaman ko na magreremove ako, parang nawala yung buhay ko. Nainis ako kasi bakit ang tamad ko talaga? Nung inaaral ko nga sya naisip ko na mas madali sya nung inaaral ko kasi mas naintindihan ko sya. Haay. Nung day pa ng removal exam, di pa daw kami pag-eexamin kasi wala daw kaming removal exam permit o kung ano man tawag dun. Tapos pinapila pa kami, tapos biglang sinabi na ok na lang muna, ihabol na lang after ng exam. Haay. Talaga naman. Anyway, ok na yun kasi pasado ako! Yey! =) kaso bago ko nalaman na pumasa ako, I made a bet with 3 people. And two of them took the removal exam like me. One passed and the other, sadly, didn’t. Now I was thinking how to treat them, when one of them is not feeling happy? =( yesterday, I could not even approach her, because she wasn’t looking at me. I could not talk to her. Sigh. I didn’t know what to do. I don’t know whether to be happy because I passed or should I be sad too because some didn’t? =(

Yesterday, Friday, April 22, I went to sm southmall, because spongecola is going to be there to promote ww5 pulp summer slam. Itel came with me. I was sad because the event would start at 4pm but we arrived past 5pm. Sabi nga ni itel sana may maabutan pa kami. Haay. Nung bumaba kami, maingay pa! wuhoo! Last song ng isang band (di ko kilala e) tapos up next spongecola na. tumugtog sila ng 5 songs. Ang cute ni yael! Nakakatuwa silang lahat. Galing =) tapos dala ko pa yung cd nila at palm top ko pero ang pangit ng kuha. Haay. Walang kwenta. Tapos na. =) nagtext si icy, nasa sm pa ba daw kami. Pumunta sya dun at nagikot ikot lang kaming tatlo, sumakay ng ride (yung parang roller coaster), nagpiano at pumalo sa arcade, at kumain. Nandun din sila mommy kasi galing sila sa makro. Tapos kahapon, FIRST TIME KONG NAKAHAWAK ng Motorola Motorazr v3. dummy phone nga lang. pero ok na din. =) feel ko na talaga. =) haay. =) di ko na din yun ipipilit sa magulang ko kasi kung ok naman sa kanila at may pera sila bibigay naman nila yung kailangan ko. =) kaya ok na din ako. =) may phone pa naman ako e.

Kahapon din nung umaga ay may mga guard encounters kami ni itel. Kasi kapag hinahanapan kami ng id dirediretso lang kami kasi naman, college naming yun at dati labas pasok lang kami dun. E mukhang bago yung guard. Hehehe. Dinaanan ko lang. =) bad. Marami pa yan. =)

Yesterday, it felt like a very long day for me. Sigh. Too many things I encountered.

Ayan lang muna. Wala na akong maisip e. masyadong mahaba na din. Hehehe. Babay!

updates

2005-04-05T19:01:00.000+08:00

first of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ITEL!! 19 ka na! hahaha! ;p thanks for everything.

YEHEY!! classes just ended!! wuhoo! and i am happy becasue we are not required to have summer classes! wuhoo again! :) i can now relax a little and hope for the best in the results of my exams. sigh. :p

magdodorm na ako. sigurado na yan. nagdown na sila daddy e. aga no? yung dorm, ok naman. di gaano kalaki pero ok na sya kasi kakayanin naman yung space. di din naman maliit e. nahihiya nga ako kina daddy kasi parang mapapamahal sila kapag nagdorm ako. kaya kailangan galingan ko sa lahat ng bagay. go!

ang nangyari nung april 4 (kahapon):dumating ako ng maaga, mga 8am, kasi magpapasa ako ng idea file. e before 12pm kasi sya dapat para may additional na 5pts at walang deductions. tapos nag-aral na ako sa neuro kasi finals namin. eto ang masaklap. AKALA KO 1-3PM ANG EXAM. hala! nalamam ko na 9am pala! nataranta ako kasi may dalawang nagtanong sa akin kung anong oras. ang sabi ko 1-3pm. nagpaload ako agad ng 50 pesos tapos tinawagan ko si kz muna kasi cavite pa sya manggagaling. ayun. sobrang taranta ko talaga. ang tagal pa nya sumagot. umiiyak na nga ako sa kanya e. nagsosorry ako kasi bka di sya makaabot. di nya sinasagot yon. tapos sabi nya baka malate daw sya. baka 11pm pa sya dumating. sobra. umiiyak na talaga ako. tinawagan ko si ai, yung pangalawang sinabihan ko na 1pm pa exam. tapos yung sumagot parang kakagising lang. ayun tama nga. kakagising lang nya. feeling ko nataranta din sya kasi nasa boses nya e. tapos huling tinawagan ko si itel. wala lang. kasi kelangan ko ng komfort. haay. talaga. ang sama ng loob ko e. tapos bumabyahe na sya. nasa bus. hina nga ng boses e kasi feeling ko nahihiya sya. medyo matagal ko syang kinausap. umiiyak pa rin ako.

maaga pumasok kasi ginising ako ni daddy kasi sabay na daw ako sa kanya.

tapos non, bumalik na ko sa mga blockmates ko, grabe umiiyak pa rin ako. di na nga ako makapagconcentrate e. kasi naman. iniisip ko pa rin si kz. ang layo pa nya e. :( haay. kakahiya kasi ang daming nakatingin. di na ako nakapag-aral pa. bahala na.

nung exam, medyo ok na parang hindi. kasi naman di ko na alam kung ano isasagot ko. :( di ko natapos pag-aralan lahat. kaya halos sinagad ko yung oras para matapos. pero natapos ko.

yung mga late dumating, tulad ni kz, di na pinag-extend ni sir. hala! 11 na sya dumating tapos 12 kami natapos. buti na lang nasagutan daw nya lahat. haay talaga. :( sorry. :(

after ng exam, tiningnan namin ulit yung dorm kasi si kz titingnan din. feeling ko masama pa rin loob nya sa akin. sabi ko nga sa kanila wag na lang sila magtanong sa akin kasi mapapahamak lang sila. grabe. mali kasi yung nakasulat sa sked ko e. ayun. tapos nag-GBOX kami. ayun. photohunt. tawa lang kami ng tawa kasi wala na. maingay lalo ako. nakakahiya pero i didn't care at that time. :)

ayan. that was my iyak-day. meron pa yan pero mamamya ko na lang siguro ilalagay dito. :)

a note to life-readers

2005-03-31T00:09:00.000+08:00

to all the life-readers and meaning-givers of this blog:

i suggest taht you use the tag board on the right side of the screen. so that i could, somehow, know who visits this blog. :)

your names would be greatly appreciated. :) thanks!

the day that is going to be...

2005-03-30T18:55:00.000+08:00

what? labo.. hehehe. sobrang init! SOBRAANG INIIIT!!! may emphasis na yan at may kasamang dragging of the voice pa. hehe. sobra talaga. kung walang aircon kanina pagdating ko ewan ko na lang. yung sinakyan kong bus wala man lang takip para hindi pumasok lahat ng araw. aba! nasa window ako no! ha! sunog na kalahati ng mukha ko. sakit pa nya kanina. pagdating ko nga, dinikit ko yung mukha ko sa sahig. and.. what a relief. haay.. :) sarap :)

kanina, last exam for the week. toxic! ang dami pa.. hindi pa yan tapos.. eto pa:
1. neuroanatomy exam!!!
2. idea file (gagawin ko na to mamaya)
3. neuroanatomy removals (?.. ayoko na magremove. pero kung yan na lang ang paraan para pumasa, e di sige.)
4. socsci2 case study
5. magtransfer ng video
6. wala na? haaay. wish i could say so.

ayan. akala ko konti na lang. madami pa yan. haay talaga. tama na. wala na akong masabing matino.

*** i saw you again. and life, i think, started to have a little more color again. life always has colors. given by friends, family, problems, CAMP! and now you.. :) ***

what

2005-03-27T21:34:00.000+08:00

bad ko talaga. ang pangit ng subject.

why are those people you are trying to forget and have gone over through keep coming back?

why are those people whom you would expect to be not bothering you anymore still remember you?

questions. and weird theories. yet, i do not feel the same for you anymore.. not all my fault.

sigh.

exam days are here to invade. and i am here. sh*t!

(sorry...)

mga ayoko

2005-03-26T22:48:00.000+08:00

naiinis ako sa mga taong nag-a-assume.
naiinis ako sa mga taong HINDI NAG-AABISO AT MANGDADAMAY PA! hello!? pareho lang tayo ng ginagawa diba? sana hindi ka tumuturo ng mga tao na gagawa, LALO NA KAPAG HINDI NILA ALAM!!
naiinis ako sa mga taong hindi nagsasabi ahead of time tapos may LAST MINUTE NA IPAPAGAWA.

umiiyak na ako ngayon, habang ginagawa ito. para akong tanga. nawalan tuloy ako ng gana na mag-aral...bakit ganon?ang haba ng bakasyon hindi man lang ako nasabihan? hello?!

sige itutuloy ko na muna 'tong pag-iyak ko....

i am pissed off... i am mad... i am crying...

feeling ko ok na...

2005-03-25T00:21:00.000+08:00

haay. natapos ko na din yung mga requirement sa p.i.. ang dami. di bale, tapos na naman. finals na lang sa pi ang iisispin ko.. nung nasend ko na sa emeyl, akala ko ok na ko. di pa pala. it sank to me that i have to study for four final exams: ot141, ot 151, otpt117, at pi100. tindi! pinagsama-sama ko yung mga kailangan kong aralin at sy*t! makapal pa siya sa spackman 10th ed ko!!! grr.. kala ko holi wik medyo relax. pag nagrelax ka pala pinapatay mo sarili mo.. haaay.. kaya natin no. i am rili looking forward to summer vacation. pero di dapat tumaba! hahaha! :) o cge. matutulog na ko para makagising ng maaga para makapagsimula nang mag-aral.

i am happy that some people are actually enjoying their life :) go go!!

updeyts

2005-03-22T20:12:00.000+08:00

i have not been posting entries here. i have been busy. it is nearly the end of the semester. sigh.

i am happy because we were told that we are not going or required to take a course for the summer. i am not sure whether i am going to be happy or not. i and my friends had my mind set on the things i would want to do. and if i would not have a summer class, then i would or restricted (i am not sure) to do those that i have planned.

my entry, mango shake, has two sikwels already. :) it is embarrassing because of the craziness written on it. i am still considering whether i would post it here. :) i am thinking about it...

today, at lunch, me and the ebz talked, as we always do during lunch. we talked. and i was thinking about it. until now, i am still thinking about it. and i am weighing things and considering them. hmmm.

malaking tubig (from the other side of the wall)

2005-03-18T16:28:00.000+08:00

kanina, natulog at gumising ako ng maaga para gumawa ng dalawang report: sa PI100 at sa sts; at sa exam sa socsci2. kasalanan ko din naman kung bakit late na ko gumawa e. tamad kasi ako. haay. simula nung past 3am, nung nagising ako, di pa ako natutulog ulit. medyo nadis-apoynt ako kasi una, di natuloy yung report namin sa PI, sayang sa tulog, sa pera, sa oras, kung ano pa.. pero di bale at least ready na siya para neks wik. pangalawa, nadis-apoynt ako kasi di natuloy yung exam. naisip ko tuloy, mag-aaral na naman ako ulit. pero mabuti na din iyon kasi mapapag-aralan ko pa yung mga di ko na-aral. at least yung sts report na-submit namin. speaking of sts, 2nd exam bukas. at ang di maganda dun ay 530pm to 7pm siya. gabi na.. sa monday exam ulit. sunod-sunod na. haay. puro na lang ako haay. di bale na, ULIT, kasi nakausap naman kita. masaya ako kasi kahit papano nakakausap pa rin kita na parang wala lang. na-e-enjoy ko kasi yun. sana ikaw din. pero di ko naman hinihingi yun sa iyo e. pero para sa akin, yun na yon.

kahapon, tumawag si pierre. nangamusta. di namin namalayan, isang oras na pala ang lumipas. matagal ko na din siya di nakakausap. kasi naman e. hehehe.

kanina, nag-ice cream kami ni ica sa mini stop. sarap talaga ng ice cream dun. yung nasa cone. 10pesos lang. sarap talaga. hehehe. tapos napasin ko umaambon na. tapos lumakas. hala! wala akong payong. mabuti si ica meron. pero NABASA DIN KAMI. kasi nakatagilid yung pagbuhos ng ulan. haay. ang lalaki pa ng patak. iniisip namin kung susugod kami sa ulan at para makasakay na kami. kaso sa sobrang lakas. naisip namin na mag-camp lib. na lang muna. 'pag dating doon, papasok na din si ai at si ging. si aides nandun na din sa layb. mag-aaral sila ni ging. nanggulo lang kami ni ica at ai. pero sobrang ingay sa layb kanina. ilang beses nang nag-bell si ate dom (?) tama sana.. isa sa aming laybraryan. sobrang ingay talaga. ako nag-aayos ng sked ko pero di ko din maintindihan. distrakted ako. kung sa bagay, sa camp layb, parang di layb. maingay talaga. tahimik lang siguro pag early morning, at late night. hehehe. pati pala saturday. :) masarap naman sa camp e, malamig at maliwanag. maingay nga lang. dati nasita na din kami dyan. pero di palagi. hehehe. :) masarap tambayan. ;p

ayan. tama na. gagawa pa ako ng aof journal at ng idea file at mag-aaral pa para sa sts exam bukas. babay! :)

mood: parang palaka na nabasa ng ulan

mango shake

2005-03-15T22:59:00.000+08:00

the subject has nothing to do with whatsoever i will be posting here. i will be pasting something i have made on the ms word program and this is "HALF TRUE AND HALF FALSE". i am not sure if that is right. anyway, here goes...

>>>
I sit here… looking at the blank paper I am trying to fill. I try to think about all the things that had happened to me this day. And guess what? I cannot help but think about you. You are an inspiration to me. I admire you for almost being the guy I wanted to be a girlfriend of. The gentleman walking on the side of the street facing the vehicle while everyone else crosses, including me. You are the guy who opens the door for someone, including me. You walk almost behind us, including me.I really do admire you.

And I hope this does not get out. I do not want you to know. I do not want everyone know. You want to know the reason why? It is because of my current relationship with you. You are my friend right now, like everyone else. If this goes out, I will be shy towards you, which I do not want to happen. If that happens, I would not be able to spend time with you.

I am not asking for your full attention. Duh?! That would be stupid and unimaginable. I know you like someone else. I believe everyone else knows that. I am happy with you being my friend. At least, I could fool around even if you are near. I could tease you and hit you (sorry). I could sit close to you. I could be happy with you.

Right now, I am just not ready to be committed. I do not know about you. I do not assume that you like me, too. Again, that would be unimaginable. Please continue being nice. I like you that way.I am sorry for hitting you. As another friend said, every friend of mine is a battered friend. ;) I am sorry for saying foul things to you. I am sorry for being mataray towards you. As you might have observed, it is not only towards you that I am like that. I am sorry for being boisterous and childish. It is just the way I am.

With all this, I am not sure I will get somewhere. I am just happy to have just written down everything I felt today, with memories of you in it. I am also happy that I have said this in the English language. It is rarely that I do so. Thank you for being my inspiration. God bless you.

March 15, 2005
10:40PM
>>>

mood: cheerful

tsokoleyt kringkels

2005-03-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

hahaha! natuwa na naman ako sa topic. si ging kasi binilhan ako ng kringkels at ako ang nagbayad. wahahaha! thanks ging! :) masarap...

yung tungkol kay onin, i have too much mixed emotions (sobrang redundant na niyan)... alam niyo 'yan. una, ayoko na kasi na ginagawa akong part 2 ng kung ano man. sino ba naman ang may gusto niyan? pero ayoko din na isipin na lahat ng mali ay nanggaling sa kanya. alam kong may fault din ako diba? di ko naman dinideny yan e. i have been trying to forget and avoid him pero he keeps coming back. haay... why does he have to keep coming back? feeling ba niya galit pa ako sa kanya? kasi kung 'yun lang, e pwedeng pwede kong sabihin sa kanya harap harapan na hindi ako galit..

yung nagtext sa akin ng "R u Onin's newest girl?" at ng "M askin u..." naisip ko na baka si lani na nga talaga 'yon.. kasi last night, sunday, habang nag-aaral ako ng OT151 at bigla akong tinamad, naghalungkat ako ng gamit ko. nakita ko yung notebook na matagal ko nang pagmamay-ari at binasa ko ang laman. halu-halo ang meron: ringtones, songs, drawing, journal entry (3rd year HS), at mga text messages.. nung binabasa ko, nakita ko yung text ni lani sa akin dati, yung first time na tinext niya ako.. at ang pagkakatext niya ay ganito: "R u Onin's friend? Gf?" at "M asking u..."... napakalaki ng similarities.. and yet, i do not want to conclude, kasi it might be onin, pretending to be someone else, and yet it might really be lani..

haay.. sorry kung paulit-ulit na lang ako.. alam kong madami na din ang nagsasawa pakinggan ang mga kwentong ito kasi wala naman itong sense at kwenta (pareho lang 'yon diba?) hehehe.. anyway, i am still to read about marx right now and to do some research, so i have to get out of this.. babay!! :)

mixed nuts (from the other side)

2005-03-13T01:32:00.000+08:00

natuwa lang ako sa subject :)

nag-check ako ng friendster account ko at sabi may 2 new messages daw ako. e di akala ko may topak na naman yung friendster, kasi palagi namang sinasabi na mag new message ka pero wala naman. anyway, going back to the story, nagulat ako pagbukas ko nung "2 new messages" si Onin lang ang bagong message. eto:

subject: - - Ü - -
message:
Nice hair! I like it... Stay Cool

MMMmmmwwwwaaahhhhhhh!!!!
(copied from his friendster message; Saturday, March 12, 2005 8:55:00 AM-date at time ng friendster)

tama ba yung ginawa ko? kasi nireplayan ko yung message niya. :( i tried to be neutral. you be the judge. eto ang sinabi ko:
Salamat! I like it, too. enjoying it actually pwede na kasi ako hindi magsuklay e. hehehe. joke lang. :)

God bless you!

kung alam lang niya yung nangyari nung monday. pero malay natin at alam pala talaga niya. bahala na siya. tinopak lang ako at naisipan ko na replayan yung message. haay. buhay.

topic 2: inis si cbc sa laptop niya kasi may "impeksyon" daw. naalala ko 'tong pc na gmait ko ngayon, dati ayoko na talaga siya gamitin kasi puro spyware, etc. inis talaga. ang hirap ng gamitin, ayaw na halos ipagamit. kaya naka-ilang ulit ng iinstall yung windows. haay. cbc, i hope everything turns out well..

gratitude

2005-03-10T21:59:00.000+08:00

salamat po sa lahat ng taong naramay sa akin. it felt really good knowing that people are just behind you. napalaban tuloy ako sa english.. hehehe. :) now it does not bother me that much.. thanks :)

extras:

every time i watch the american idol (men's part and elimination), kinikilig ako kay BO BICE!! grabe na ito.. hehehe.. okay din si constantine at anwar (i'm not sure about the spelling, sorry.)

alam mo yong feeling na masabihan ka ng mataba? oo nga. alam ko naman na mataba ako e.. I AM PERFECTLY AWARE ABOUT THE CONDITION OF MY BODY! pero yung uulitin pa sa akin, lalo na kapag WALA AKO SA MOOD. okay lang na sabihan ako nun pero sana sabayan yung mood ko. anyway, everyone is entitled to his/her opinion and i respect that. i do. pero there are times that i get too sensitive.. :( sorry.

mood: cheerful

listening to the song HALE by broken sonnet (in my head)

o siya. tama na. babay.

my day today

2005-03-07T20:36:00.000+08:00

today is a weird, exciting, and bad day for me.. here goes:

when i woke up, i was happy because i was sort of changing my appearance. of course, as you all know i had my hair cut last thursday. o yeah! (nice hair! - sabi ni kuya ken ;p) i had my mom buy me a big shoulder bag because i am not comfortable with a small shoulder bag. so, she bought me a big, orange shoulder bag with a big flower painted to it. it was really cute :) i enjoyed it, and decided to use it this day, which i did. and everyone was admiring it. :) and when i asked them how much they think it costs, they said 200pesos. and i told them it is for only 75pesos. really nice :) i like it :)

next, we had our first class for today. the usual: group activity, group work, and class discussion. we almost had a quiz but we pleaded not to, because there are so many topics to study/cram for. ;p

we had lunch, a regular one. :) diet! :) ah, eating is good! :) hehehe. :)

the DAY-RUINER! we had another class, and i was studying my notes because we were warned earlier that we are going to have a quiz. i was already sitting in my seat, when somebody called, on my cellphone. i did not know who it was so i texted: "cno po i2?" and rang his/her phone. guess what the person replied, which really ruined my day?

"R u 0nin's newest girl?"

what?! him again? and the term NEWEST GIRL? what am i? gosh! i felt my head burn, not literally, of course. i did not reply at once. but i could not calm down. maybe it was a long wait for that person, he/she texted again saying, "M askin u..." and rang my cellphone. i was really furious.

i replied: "i don't know who u r..and i am not his NEWEST GIRL..di ako damit no!and i haven't talked to him,eversince." i was not satisfied with that reply of course. i wanted to add: STOP THIS! but i did not because i wanted to know who was texting me and what do i have to do with him again? sigh!

i added another text: "I'M SORRY I'M IN THE MIDDLE OF MY NEUROANATOMY LECTURE!!" i was really pissed. what you see here is true. day-ruiner!

gladly, though, i passed my neuroanatomy quiz! :) yehey! good thing. :) sigh.

this day.. now, i am wondering who is that person? is that lani?did they break up already and is she checking out whether i am texting or having a communication with niño again? or was that niño, checking me out? or is that his new girlfriend? AGAIN, what do i have to do with him? why is he back again? hello?! move on!!! i'm doing fine and is not bitter, that is a fact.

sigh. now i feel fine, having said this. :) i'm going now to study. good night. :)

mood: annoyed but fine...

2005-03-06T22:05:00.000+08:00

i had my hair cut last thursday evening. wala lang trip ko lang, tsaka si icy dinare (dare) ako. haha! :) it is the shortest cut i ever had.. and i am happy about it. :) kasi i could now not brush it in the morning! hahaha. :) joke lang. syempre di 'yon. i wanted to experiment about hair cuts. di kasi ako sinanay o sanay sa mahabang buhok. sabi ko sa sarili ko, kung magpapagupit ako ulit, try ko yung parang wash and wear. ayan. eto na.

yung buhok ko: mas maiksi siya sa buhok ni ces drilon. :) o diba? wash and wear na pwedeng tumayo lagyan lang ng gel. :)

reactions that i got (i generalized it already):
1. mas gwapo ka na sa akin (syempre sa mga lalaki kong kaklase)
2. mas mahaba na yung buhok namin sa iyo (sa lalaki ko paring kaklase)
3. mukha kang tibo (courtesy of my cbc ;p)
4. bagay sa iyo :) (oh, yeah!)
5. (titingin lang sa akin, bakit ano na ba itsura ko? ;p)

ayan. magdadagdag na lang ako kung meron pa. hehehe. nakakatuwa nga makakuha ng iba't ibang reactions e. :) kaya, keep them coming!! :)

babay.

quizzes...

2005-03-04T23:56:00.001+08:00

i've been so bored.. and these quizzes are just results of my boredom.. i got this from barbie.. thanks :)

quiz #1:

You like the sweet, shy type.

What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics)
brought to you by Quizilla

is this really the guy that i want? hmm.. shy type? sweet, maybe yes.. but shy type? hahaha! maybe in a way, but not to the point that i will be the one to defend ourselves if in trouble.. right? maybe.. ;p it looks like i am the aggressive one.. ;)

quiz #2:

Your label is the Nice girl/guy. You tend to care
for others over yourself. However, many people
appreciate your caring side and would rather
stick by you than hurt you. But, there is a
downside. Some tend to abuse your kindness and
take advantage of you. You always try to see
the good in everyone and try not to hate.
Also, you have sharp insight and a great
personality. Calm, serene, and understanding,
you make a worthy friend and a valuble ally to
people in need. Don't change your sweet
nature, your constant being-there can save a
life.

I suggest your go into a field that
centers around working with others such as a
doctor, baby-sitter, psychologist, lifeguard,
or Teacher. If none of these occupations
interest you, it is okay then. I am sure that
there are plenty of oppertunities out there for
you.

What type of teenager are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

i am not sure if all of these are true.. maybe, maybe not.. i believe that some are yes..

i am only doing this for fun! :)

feelings...confused...

2005-03-02T23:50:00.000+08:00

pioneer of my profession. nameet ko (actually, namin, at hindi yan meet na one-to-one) yung isa sa mga pioneers ng profession ko. ang galing nga e, kasi dinidiscuss lang namin siya last sem. foreigner. dr. yerxa. sana tama spelling ko. sayang di ko dinala yung spackman 10th ko, at nakapagpa-autograph sana ako. actually, dinala ko hanggang kotse lang, nagpahatid kasi ako kay daddy. tapos, tinamad akong dalhin, kaya iniwan ko. :(

middle-aged adult part of the exam. haay. i failed the lab part of one prof. on this topic. sobrang strict kasi niya mag-grade. bumagsak ako ng less than 6 points/percent dahil sa kanya. :(

my sister. kasi nas upd siya. at naka-dorm siya. syempre natural lang na maging bored siya dun. kaya last night, march1, 10pm na siya halos bumalik ng dorm. syempre nagalit sila daddy. sabi ko kay daddy, wag siyang mainis kasi mainit na ulo niya. tapos akala ko ok na kasi nagsorry na siya kay daddy. naawa nga ako kasi i just talked to her this morning, kala ko ok na. yun pala, tinawagan ni daddy nung umaga, at umiyak siya. :( tapos pinuntahan pa doon, umiyak ulit. tapos ngayong gabi may sinamahan siya, pinagalitan ulit. she cried again. the whole day she was crying. i wanted so much to go to upd and comfort her physically but i do not know how. :( i do not want to know that shw cries. kasi isa siya sa mga stronghold ko. :(( it is really sad. kinausap ko ulit nga si daddy kanina. sabi ko mainit lang ulo niya. he was thinking of some crazy stuff (for my opinion it was crazy). i understand my daddy's point. gabi na nga naman at delikado na sa upd. pero dahan dahan lang diba?

un na muna. babay.

the story behind it all...

2005-03-01T21:51:00.000+08:00

eto na po yung testimonial ng bestfriend ko sa akin:

Tuesday, November 18, 2003:

Sobra na ito talaga!!!Pangatlong attemptko na ito para baguhin ang testimonialko sa'yo!!!Nywei...di ako nagclassngayon...huhuhu...bakit ang bad kongayon???E kasi naman...dehinz ko tripung nagsub na prof...ewan ko...la talagaako naiintindihan pag cia ungsub...nyweiz...andito ako salab.Wahahahaha!!!As I've said,itongbabaeng ito ay aking BF!OO BF kocia!!!Wahahaha syempre BESTFRIEND!Di kotalaga alam na mero'n pa kong kauri ditosa mundong ito...para malaman niyo,akoay isang ALIEN!Yup,that's right!I'm anALIEN =) C Karina din e,ALIEN =) Kayapala sobrang magkasundo kami nyan.I mether when we're first year...sa SPCPsyempre.Sobra!Kala ko talaga dimakabasag pinggan yan!!?!?Yung tipongwala talagang imik???Yung kahit awayinmo,e wala pa rin???ABA!!MALI akodoon...maling-mali!!!Wahahahaha =)Nagstart kami mag-usap nung anoe...Basta...eto ung story...Minsangbumabagyo noon at suspended ungclasses.Tapos hintay ko sundoko...hintay din niyaata...ay...actually...ung servicenila,nsa may kabilang skul...ung St.Andrew.Kaya kailangan pa niya tumawid.Ewala cia payong.Tapos nakita ko cianoon.Sbi ko,"diba classmate kita?" Sbiniya,"Oo.Uhm...may plastic ka ba?" Sbiko,"mero'n...bakit...???a alam kona!kasi gagamitin mo na pansapin sa ulomo no???" Tapos kinuha ko ung plasticko...at binigay ko sa kanya...Natawa akosa sinabi niya kasi...sabiniya..."Isosoli ko na lang ung plasticmo bukas a?" Pambihira talaga itongbestfriend ko no?May balak pang isauliung plastic!Nywei....pagkataposnon,naging close kami.Actually,ung titlena bestfriend late na naminnarealize...nung third year langkami...may tawagan nga kami e..CBC.Itstands for Covalent BestfriendCousin.Oi,mga chong,di kami magpinsana?Hehe may story din jan e...kaso kasimahaba...ask Karina bout it =) Pero lamniyo kung bakit covalent???Scientificyan e...kasi ang covalent bond e mahirapmaputol...parang kami...meron na kasisobrang tibay na bond (kasi minightybond namin e!!Wahahaha!)...and mahiraptalaga kaming paghiwalayin.Eayun....haay....eto papala...Ajong+Karina=KALOKOHAN!Wahahahahasobra!Partners-in-Mischief kami niyane!Hehehe pero masBAD ako aaminin ko =)Tanungin niyo na lang sa kanya kungbakit....hehehehe ang dami ko na kayanakaaway na teachers!Isa na rin doon ungumaway sa bestfriend ko.Ajong+Karina=BANGAG! Kapag makikita niyokaming magkasama,malalaman niyo ungtotoong meaning ng bangag!Wahahahaha =)Ajong+Karina=DRAMA! Lalo nako....hehehe....di ko na kukwento...samin na lang dalawa iyon no!Ajong+Karina=POPULAR! Sikat kayakami!Lam niyo ba natsismis pa kami ngbestfriend ko sa school!KAMIdaw!!?!?Duh!?!?!Di ko papatulan ungbestfriend ko no!Hehehe oo love ko yanpero kasi...bestfriend ko yan e =)Hehehehe =) Tsaka may mga kanya-kanya nakaming iniisip...in other words,maylovelife na kami!Hehehe =) Tska kilalana kami ni manong guard at manang siomai!Si manong guard e ung guard sa McDo.Atsi manang siomai e nagtitinda ng siomaisa plaza...Haay...(I LLLOOOOOOOVVVVEEEEESSSIIIOOOOMMMMAAAAIIIII.....I guess weboth do...lalo na pag may garlic...bagoba sa inyo un?Siomai na maygarlic???).Ajong+Karina=MATAKAW! Sobrangtakaw naming pareho...pareho kamingtakot tumingin sa timbangan!Hehehehe =)Grabe ang lakas kasi namin kumain e!Perotingnan niyo naman...SEXY pa rinkami!Wahahahaha!Ajong+Karina=MAKAPAL!Wahahaha....di niyopa ba obvious un???Nywei...Marami pa komasasabi sa bestfriend ko...Pero ito angmahalaga...I LOVE YOU KARINA!!!Kaw langang bestfriend ko!!! =) Mwah!(_o_) <- oayan...binigyan na kita ng
tissue..bakaumiyak ka na e...huhuhuhu...MISS YOU!!

o yan.. sana maintindihan niyo. nakakahiya pero totoo.. babay!!

my thoughts...

2005-03-01T21:42:00.000+08:00

ang daming tumatakbo sa isip ko ngayon. di ko na nga alam kung anong uunahin..

kanina. kanina, muntik na naman akong manakawan. for the THIRD TIME. bumaba ako ng bus nakasara yung bag ko kasi yakap ko yun. tapos nung bumaba ako sa may red ribbon at naglakad papuntang sakayan ng tricycle, iba na feeling ko. gabi na din kc,mga past 7pm. tapos tiningnan ko yung bag ko,bukas na siya.lahat ng zipper. chinek ko agad wallet ko syempre.. buti na lang andun pa.wala namang nawala. thank God. buti na lang nag-pray kami ni mam heidie (leader ko at example) bago umuwi. i also prayed pagsakay ng bus. haay..

cbc.i have read by bestfriend's blog.her entries bothered me (syempre bestfriend niya ko diba?). ewan ko. kasi naman e. i answered some questions, at yung mga sagot ay mga stand ko about sa mga tanong niya. cbc, i'm sorry. wag ka mag-alala. i'll support you! i'll always be here for you!

CAS subjects. grabe!! natotoxic ako sa mga subject na di ko majors!! haay.. demanding pa. at sinasabayan pa yung mga requirements ng mga majors! duh!! di bale last sem ko na ito doon. yehey!!!

o siya alis na ako.. babay!

reposting :(

2005-02-28T01:02:00.000+08:00

from the entry: haay.. (another entry from the other side of the wall)

entry goes like this: (it cannot be seen.. :( ..)

ngayon ay gumagawa ako ng activity analysis ng activity na: purchasing the materials, tools, and equipment and making bibingka for a Young adult. kakatamad na! haay.. kasi naman e. ang haba ng bakasyon. tinamad ako. pati sa pag-aaral ng neuro, tinamad pa rin ako. sana makabawi na ako. kasi bagsak yung first lec and lab exams ko. :( at sana yung 2nd lec and lab exams ay pasado na at mabawi yung mga bagsak. :) ayoko umulit ng neuro at ma-delay sa course kO!! :(

hmm.. nagbasa ako ng ibang mga journal, at nakita ko na iba iba ang emotions na meron. sabagay, unique nga tayo.

cbc, ano nang nangyari dun kay.. hmm.. ano ba itatawag ko? eric? feeling close ko naman. anyway, sa kanya nga? hmm.. sana ok na siya. e ikaw mukhang sobrang saya mo kasi may flash drive (di ko alam yan.. :( ..) ka na. :) puro nga exclamation mark yung entry mo e.. hehehe. :)

o siya, next time na lang. tuloy ko pa 'tong aa at tl ko. at baka mag-aaral pa ako mamaya para sa neuro.

babay.

there... sigh.. techno stress (?) :(

cbc

2005-02-28T00:56:00.000+08:00

para sa mga di nakakaalam nito, ang cbc ay tawagan namin ng bestfriend ko. ang ibig sabihin niyan ay COVALENT BESTFRIEND COUSIN. long story. i-po-post ko dito yung testimonyal niya sa akin na nagkekwento kung pa'no kami naging magbestfriend. :) sa ibang panahon na lang. :) babay ulit!

haay.. (another entry from the other side of the wall)

2005-02-28T00:46:00.000+08:00

ngayon ay gumagawa ako ng activity analysis ng activity na: purchasing the materials, tools, and equipment and making bibingka for a Young adult. kakatamad na! haay.. kasi naman e. ang haba ng bakasyon. tinamad ako. pati sa pag-aaral ng neuro, tinamad pa rin ako. sana makabawi na ako. kasi bagsak yung first lec and lab exams ko. :( at sana yung 2nd lec and lab exams ay pasado na at mabawi yung mga bagsak. :) ayoko umulit ng neuro at ma-delay sa course kO!! :(

hmm.. nagbasa ako ng ibang mga journal, at nakita ko na iba iba ang emotions na meron. sabagay, unique nga tayo.

cbc, ano nang nangyari dun kay.. hmm.. ano ba itatawag ko? eric? feeling close ko naman. anyway, sa kanya nga? hmm.. sana ok na siya. e ikaw mukhang sobrang saya mo kasi may flash drive (di ko alam yan.. :( ..) ka na. :) puro nga exclamation mark yung entry mo e.. hehehe. :)

o siya, next time na lang. tuloy ko pa 'tong aa at tl ko. at baka mag-aaral pa ako mamaya para sa neuro.

babay.

yey!

2005-02-26T01:40:00.000+08:00

sorry for the stupid entry before this.. i think it is fixed now. you see? i AM moody. hahaha. okay.. bye now. good morning!

grrr...

2005-02-26T01:33:00.000+08:00

i am actually p*ss*d because i cannot seem to correct an error on this blog! grrr... i'm logging out. and the next time i come back, and when i look at you, i should see the better part of you. alright? gudbay.

ang tambak na mga kwento

2005-02-26T01:13:00.000+08:00

ayan. siguro ito na yung magiging pinakamahabang entry ko. siguro. anyway ito na.

nung february 8, umattend kami ng forum sa Little Theatre sa CAS. substiture class. ang topic ay ang Hacienda Luisita Massacre last year. nung simula may songs na pinresent. tapos may pinapanood sa amin na kung napanood niyo ay maiiyak kayo. ako? i'm near to crying. pinigilan ko lang. documentary film siya. nakakatakot yung nangyari. sobra. naawa din ako sa mga namatay, naiwan, umiyak, at nawalan ng trabaho. people receive lass that 10pesos (?) a day. i can't even survive with that amount of money in school. tubig na maliit na bote lang yun. haay. i can't event decribe it in words. :(

dorm issue. nakakapagod bumyahe. alam yan ng mga bumabyahe. yung tipong pag-uwi mo ng bahay ay gusto mo na lang matulog at gumisisng kinabukasan. and having the feeling of not having any time left. so, nagpunta kami ng rob towers ng isa kkong blockmate kasi binisita namin yung isa naming blockmate pa dun. inaya niya (yung nakatira sa rob towers) na magdorm din. ang mahal! 5000++ each person. :( too much. di pa kasama pagkain nun. kawawa naman parents ko kung titira ako dun. so nung sinabi ko kina daddy un, feeling ko, pumayag na din sila na mag-dorm ako. wag lang sa rob. ok na din kasi nga sobrang mahal. tapos nung gabi... naiyak ako kasi feeling ko aalis na ako ng bahay. i'm not going to experience the feeling of being in my own home. kung tutuusin malapit nga lang ako. naiyak ako kasi ma-mi-miss ko yung parents ko, yung mga times na nanggugulo ako sa kanila, yung COMFORT OF MY OWN HOME. haay. update: kahapon nag-inquire ako sa isang dorm na malapit, at ang punchline ay: "WE ONLY ACCEPT CATHOLICS"!! sh*t! inis kasi bakit ganon? how many discrimination do i have to experience in my lifetime? dahil lang magkaiba tayo di na pwede? aargh!!!!

valentines day. itong araw na ito ay may exam ako. valentine's exam (which, happily i passed! :)). nung hapon nagpunta kami ng rob, ako, si ica, jai, ging, at jeff. binilhan ni jeff si ica ng balloon. sabi ko ako din. hehehe. nagpabili ako kay jai, literally. ako nagbigay ng pambili at si jai lang ang bumili. hehehe. topak lang. pagkatapos nun ay naglakad na kami papuntang roxas boulevard. kasi block date sana yun. pagdating namin dun, wala yung iba naming blockmates. nasa ccp na pala sila at nagbbike. gosh!! nilakad namin yung buong roxas, mula sa faura hanggang sa ccp. nasunog ang noo ko nun! sunog yung kalahating mukha ko. haay. sabi ko kasi sakay na lang kami. ayaw nila. haay. pero enjoy na rin kasi pagdating ng ccp, nagbike kami magdamag. 20pesos ang bike for 2hours. :) tapos dahan dahang nauubos na din kami. nung medyo dumilim na, nagvideoke sila. nood lang ako. ginabi na din kami ng uwi nun. pero ok din kasi ang tagal ko nang di nagbibike. sabi nga nila, next year daw ulit, hanggang single kami. hehehe. :)

group activity: groove to the beat. kahapon, wednesday, february 23, 2005, ay group activity namin sa ot 141. magtuturo kami ng kahit ano sa adults. ang napagkasunduan ng block dati ay ballroom dancing, specifically, swing. nagpractice kami ng ilang mga araw. at nung tuesday lang nila sinabi na kasama pala ako sa mga magpeperform sa start ng program. gosh! nakapalda na red na may flowers na puti at malaki ako kahapon, heels na suot ko nung debut ni raqi, white na polo blouse, at red na headband. girly. tuwang tuwa sila kahapon kasi minsan lang nila ako makita na nakagano'n. haay. kakailang nga e, kasi di naman ako sanay na nakaskirt e. :p ok naman yung group activity, kaso feeling namin 'di naman siya parang group activity. parang BLOCK PARTY. di bale, nag-enjoy naman kami. hehehe.o ayan na. tama na yan. ang haba na kasi e. next time na lang.

pahabol, si cbc PATAWAG TAWAG NA LANG. secret! ;)

babay.

(this entry came from the other side of the wall. hehehe. :) if you know what i mean...)

sigh

2005-02-15T04:01:00.000+08:00

i slept the rest of valentines day.. add this to my reminder, my heart's day day, february 14, 2005. iba na ito. next year, ako? still the same! ;p hehehe. sige, gagawa pa ako ng report e.. babay. (hala! tambak na pala yung mga kwento ko! hehehe. =p)